Whiskey Words & a Shovel III

friends become enemies
lovers start to feel like strangers
and there’s nothing strange about it
it’s not enough to be wanted
fuck desire, fuck temptation
preserve yourself for those
who deserve you

the moment you feel like

you’ve won

you then realize that the more you advance

the more you have to lose

and nothing ever gets easier

you just learn better ways

to navigate a life that seemingly

becomes tougher

last year I had nothing

and the emptiness was expected

this year I have more

but the emptiness

continues to haunt me

life is a complex thing

that can’t be solved with things

and maybe I’m beginning to realize

the unimportance of material items

maybe the toughness of it all

is making me stronger

reached the bottom.
I’ll be honest with you
whatever I felt has faded
into the air

laws in love.
despite it all
she’s brave enough

if what you love
causes you pain
let it go
and create your own peace

the nights won’t feel so lonely
the mornings won’t be so damn difficult
your heart may ache now
but there’s power in pain
and you’re just getting stronger

the love you deserve

can’t be found

while holding on to someone

who doesn’t deserve you

of their day
you’ve been trying
to create a future
with someone who belongs
to your past
and you’ve been hurting yourself
by doing so

you were never as important
to them
as you thought
and that’s what hurts
that’s what makes you
shut down
and shut others out

starving for something real
holding on to someone who proved
to be fraudulent